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Missing You
Sep. 7th, 2009 10:43 amIt's Labor Day. Traditionally here in the US, it's the emotional end of summer, and for me, the beginning of what has long been my favorite time of year. There's always something about the stretch from Labor Day to Thanksgiving that makes me happy. I think it's remembering how good the beginning of a new academic year felt.
This year, though, is different. After a wonderful spring, summer was stressful and lonely. Insomnia and fatigue were far too common. And I'm just not looking forward to the changing of seasons this time around.
I'm not happy or even content with much in my life right now. Living situation, the job, creative impulse, family - it all feels like a mess, like I'm just going through motions. Friends are keeping me going, and #1 Crush pointed me towards some volunteer programs that are going to help me make a real decision about pursuing the next degree and bailing out on a dying industry for the public sector.
I guess it's not all gloom (despite the weather at the moment). Looks like we're going to start gaming again in the next couple of weeks. Today could be a great day to work on characters, as the weather may put the kibosh on plans for grilling and spending time outside this afternoon.
A storm just blew through. I used to love thunderstorms. Used to love their energy and the feeling of immediate violence. Now, they just make me cross.
This year, though, is different. After a wonderful spring, summer was stressful and lonely. Insomnia and fatigue were far too common. And I'm just not looking forward to the changing of seasons this time around.
I'm not happy or even content with much in my life right now. Living situation, the job, creative impulse, family - it all feels like a mess, like I'm just going through motions. Friends are keeping me going, and #1 Crush pointed me towards some volunteer programs that are going to help me make a real decision about pursuing the next degree and bailing out on a dying industry for the public sector.
I guess it's not all gloom (despite the weather at the moment). Looks like we're going to start gaming again in the next couple of weeks. Today could be a great day to work on characters, as the weather may put the kibosh on plans for grilling and spending time outside this afternoon.
A storm just blew through. I used to love thunderstorms. Used to love their energy and the feeling of immediate violence. Now, they just make me cross.