Roadside Picnic

watched blade for the first time today. it was... interesting. there were some very funny moments and some moments that were sad, and overall its very much of its time. 

took moose to the vets after work to get his kennel cough and booster vaccines. he didn't even flinch. bulletproof dog. the vet said he was in excellent condition. i think he is in need of a bath. got him a crocodile nerf toy and some cows ears - miraculously the toy has lasted the evening.

laura had her emergency dental appt and her dad made a song and dance out of it as per usual. i hope she feels better soon. its very weird her not being in the house.

we went to tesco as my vanquis card has been activated and we were running low on some vital things like loo roll - i slipped into the sushi section though and also bought a fake plant for the middle of the dining table. our dining area is so dark that its hard to keep anything real alive there.  

unfortunately i did not do my steps today. i was just too tired! balance transfers activated, although annoyingly i can't balance transfer my zable card? which was the key reason i wanted to do a balance transfer as its soo expensive. so i will prioritise paying that one down at the end of the month as my capital one is now 0% interest for 10 months. baby step in the right direction. 

wow, it turns out i really like being alone at home by myself not speaking to people. i feel so relaxed. 

woke up around 8, shuffled downstairs, made coffee and fed the dog, did six hours of work. watched a lot of youtube, mostly older episodes of obsessive compulsive cleaners. made me think that my bathroom is long overdue a clean. 

last night whilst digging around to find things to list on vinted i found my juicy couture tracksuit, and this has made me exceedingly happy! it had some fading and bleach marks on, so i put it in the machine with a dylon black and it worked PERFECTLY and now i have one of my all time fave items of clothing back in rotation. woo!

sold something on vinted, pending balance now £40. i also found another scratch card with £4 on it, and won £1 on paddy power free wheel. go me. aaand i got the balance transfer card approved! the relief i feel is unmatched. so obviously i bought myself two dresses on vinted... one is for the funeral. and the other one is because i am really just a forest pixie and a fairy dress in dark green is too good to pass up on. did you know you can use klarna on vinted? i didn't. anyway. 

cleaned bathroom, possibly burned my lungs with bleach fumes, hoovered and mopped downstairs too (definitely in danger of burning my lungs) and my word what a difference its made. soooo clean and fresh. all the bleach got to my head so moose and i got out of the house to get my steps in. my goodness it was windy. he was much better at walking today, i don't know why. but my back doesn't hurt as badly as usual! turns out after some googling, it was storm dave, and we were experiencing wind speeds of 70mph. its still very windy outside now. came back and gave rest of house a quick once over, then made my soup for dinner. totally effed up the diet by eating the remaining slice of cheesecake in the fridge, so i am like 750 calories over where i should be. whoops. 

logged back on, did another 2 hours OT. am absolutely killing the whole side hustling thing. decided to lock in and actually finish throne of glass so got the audiobook going and am now like 40% done with it. once i finished work i then went to finish my illumicrate puzzle that laura and i've been working on.... took me another 2.5 hours but i finished it, and lo and behold ITS MISSING A PIECE. absolutely fuming. so i've come to bed in a huff. i am going to clean my teeth, and then hopefully pass out. chris is home tomorrow, so i'm glad the house is clean. but i'm also glad i had a day to myself entirely. i really do enjoy not being percieved and being able to just exist. 

day 2 of 75 soft. i have done my steps, done laundry, cleaned the bedroom, drunk my water, budgeted, listed something on vinted etc etc you get the picture. my feet HURT. apparently doing 10k steps in knock off converse is not the one. 

i met a lovely lady while i was out being walked by moose, and she told me to look up a specific trainer local to us that specialises in bully breeds!! so i did and i rang her and she rang back and moose is going to have an initial appointment on the 18th. i am so excited. it would be so nice to have a dog with good leash manners. good for him and good for my joints and my back too... he's also booked into the vets on tuesday for his kennel cough vaccine, which i cannot afford but there we go.

laura has an emergency dental appt on tuesday, she is supposed to be at her dads. luckily he has said he will take her, so that means i haven't got to pay for that at least. 

work are offering 3x pay for overtime over the next four days and chris is going to leeds to visit the new granddaughter. so i am going to be home alone, working myself into an early grave so at least when i get paid i can pay off the credit cards and overdraft. i need to find the one credit card i have hidden from myself that is mostly paid off so i can pay for the vets and food. i am so tired of myself. hoping something sells on vinted soon so i can start putting money aside again. 

i keep thinking of caleb hammer screaming that not having an emergency fund is an emergency, and it turns out he is entirely right and now i am smack dab in the middle of an emergency flavoured month and i am so far into my overdraft that there are dust motes in my wallet.