Christmas 2018

I expected that I'd lose my shit last night - first Christmas Eve I've spent complete alone in a decade or more. This hasn't been good year, and the last few weeks have really weighed on me. But, I was okay, and that okayness came from a surprising source - before going to bed, I queued up a Christmas hymn playlist on YouTube.  The good stuff - old songs and carols and hymns. Stuff from my childhood. Beautiful music. And it brought such peace to me. Not going to chalk it up to any kind of divine influence, but it was more helpful than I would have imagined. I slept so well.