She's a Beauty

[tracker7]

Cute little e-card from spykeetom in my inbox this morning.  Made me smile - and a little bit lonesome.

Dad will be passing close by in about 20 minutes.  A load of BMWs for Indianapolis and Fort Wayne.  We spent some time on the phone this morning;  I'm quite often his source for directions and mileage checks.

Haven't said much of anything about this, but I think I'm getting close to losing my grandmother.  She's had a few bad spells in recent weeks, and while I've been strongly denying it to myself, she is deteriorating quickly.  She's a month past her 85th birthday, and that is a really good run, and I know that we don't live forever.  She's the family matriarch, though, and that kind of loss is not an easy thing to face.  She and I have always been close;  I'm not going to deal with this especially well.

25 days.

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[tragical-mirth.livejournal.com]

I am really sorry about that. Have never been able to tell if it's easier to lose them suddenly or slowly like this. I think both equally suck. I have only one living grandparent left, and she's up there (roughly the same age). She's a tough little bird, but who knows. Hang in there.

[tracker7.livejournal.com]

We had several months of warning with my grandfather. Time to talk with him and learn and suchlike. I do miss him - while we didn't really get along until about midway through high school, we became pretty good friends, and were very similar in many ways.

I never knew my maternal grandfather - he died when Mom was 11 or 12. My maternal grandmother ... well, let's just say I'm glad I grew up under the shadow of my paternal grandparents.

[tragical-mirth.livejournal.com]

I always thought my maternal grandmother died before I was born until we went to her funeral when I was in Junior High. My parents to this day insist they never told me that, but I know somebody did. Evidently 1) my mom and she didn't get along, and 2) she had Alzheimer's disease. I'm guessing somebody just thought it would be easier to tell the kid (me) she was dead. Ahhhhh, family.

[tracker7.livejournal.com]

Wow. I don't think there was anyone on either side that we just kinda put in an oubliette - plenty I'd like to put there now, though.

The more I'm around (and hear about) other people's families, the less insane mine seems.

[spykeetom.livejournal.com]

*hugs you close*

[tracker7.livejournal.com]

Love you, my sweet girl.